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I think I am crazy, I need help.?

I feel disgusted by myself for even asking this. For example I'm standing at a ledge with a friend and we are talking.. Then my mind says "What would happen if i pushed him over the ledge and he died... that would be awful wouldn't it?" And for a second I think about doing it.. then i feel sick about myself for even thinking it and I force it out of my mind. These thought sometimes occur for no reason, I don't like them, and i don't want them. It takes a second for them to happen and i cannot stop them. Why is this happening to me, i don't tell anyone.. for obvious reasons. This is the only thing I can currently do. And don't advise seeing a psychologist, I am going to already. I just want to see what you guys suggest. If you are a psychologist or you are learning about it... can you give any ideas of what this is? When I was about 11 I took an IQ test and got a score of 139 (a real one, not one of those fake online ones) before i took my ADD medicine. Dunno if this has anything to do with it.

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1. Do you have a question?
2. Tell your shrink. They may know. But anyway,the meds shouldn't do anything. I have an IQ of 160 and I have ADD. I have no clue when I took that test. But meds,wouldn't do anything to your smarts. Well,not with ADD meds. Not that I don't know of.
3. Well you can't really define what that is, "crazy" is different to different people. I'm a normal guy but if i had a button in front of me that would kill an entire population of people i don't even know, I would press it without giving two shits. Is that crazy? I don't think so, humanity has progressed into something much more abominable than it ever used to be. I have had that exact same thought as you described yet never acted on it. The only advice that you can actually benefit from is: You aren't crazy, taking a life means no more than squashing a bug on the ground.
4. If you just thought about it but didn't act on it, then it's ok, you are not crazy. I thought about doing bad things all the time but I would never act on it, deep in my heart I just can't do it. I am not sure if ADD medicine gave you a high IQ test, you have to ask a doctor or check online for the answer. I never took any kind of drugs to cure my mental conditions, I know nothing about the medications.